Three months. Yes, 3 months since my last post. Wedding preps, heavy workload and tasking graduate studies occupied my system pretty much that blogging had to take the back seat for a while. Really, I didn't get out of the scene. I was still around but no longer the usual. I still attended several events, micro-blogged some products, and shared a bit of me through my social media but it appeared to be different than before. No, I didn't lose the vibe. It still with me, and forever will be, in my system but I lost the confidence to keep with the flow. Yes, after years of doing this, I questioned my ability and capability to keep up. Do I deserve to be here? Am I worthy of this space in the web? Can I still go back to blogging? And realizing how huge and wide the blogging scene is now didn't help. Yes, after so many years, the thought of quitting came to me.
I felt insecure. Though the way I project myself would contradict, I have a lot of insecurities hiding under my sleeves. I hate how ugly my fingernails are so I limit my posts on nails. I am fashionably plain and boring so I don't post OOTDs. My hair is so thin thus I cannot share hairstyling tips. I can go on and on and on and suffocate you with reasons why I felt I don't deserve to be in the beauty scene. I felt I wasn't "beautiful" enough to be blogging about beauty. I felt like my presence was not missed and that, MakeUpLove will be gone with no one even noticing. Seriously, I don't know what brought me to that. Was it because I can no longer keep up with the responsibilities of blogging? Or because I get envious of other people? Again, I don't know.
But those were just my feelings. Those were just within me. I realized that I should not succumb to the call of my insecurities and instead, use it to find the good and beautiful in me. And so what if my nails are dry and ugly? I have long fingers that some think are picture-worthy. Yes, my fashion sense is plain and boring but those plain shirts and jeans will sure not go out of style. Though my hair is thin, it is straight and very much, manageable.
Insecurities are normal. Everyone has one or two in their system, for sure. But the way we deal with it makes the difference. We should not be downed with the not-so-great things about us. Instead, let us find the good in us and enhance them. It is our actions that would restore and build the confidence within us. Let us believe in everything that we do for it will empower us to succeed. Let us not let insecurities to hold us back.
So no, I will not quit blogging; more so, beauty blogging. I might venture into more niches but I wouldn't leave the one where I started. I am optimist that I will get the groove back on. It might take a little while but it will sure be back. I may have lost a number of readers during my hiatus but I will still keep this humble space because I know, I deserve it.
“Because one believes in oneself, one doesn't try to convince others. Because one is content with oneself, one doesn't need others' approval. Because one accepts oneself, the whole world accepts him or her.”
― Lao Tzu
“Because one believes in oneself, one doesn't try to convince others. Because one is content with oneself, one doesn't need others' approval. Because one accepts oneself, the whole world accepts him or her.”
― Lao Tzu
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